for the past two months I have not seen my kids.  It is not that I do not want too. My ex feels it is better this way. Personally, my mental health is ok right now. It is just that he has more documents from his lawyer. I want to see how that works out.

Then there is the part where my eating has been messed up and I need to go back into the hospital. More time away from my family. Luckily it will only be about a month.

All of this has caused a lot of stress. Some of it I can divide and deal with other parts are overwhelming. How did things get like this. Take a little from here and there and soon one is spread to thin. That is where I am at. I am hoping that the next thirty days help.