Having DID as a result of trauma is hard. There is always a question of who to trust and how much to trust them. Different parts arrive at that conclusion at separate points.
With the loss of a key member of my treatment team, I feel a huge hole. This person was someone we trusted and could count on whenever and with any piece of information. Now, I am wondering who to turn to. Who can I trust and will be there in return in the same way.
In some ways, I just have to move on. This person is going to be gone. The relationship will be over. All of me is not ready for this.